The unheard Junction.

The temperatures across the globe are soaring and now at this point of time in Mumbai it is very bad. I mean all you need is to stand in the sun and u start sweating in no time But I am blessed to be living in a place that is cooler than most of Mumbai. It is full with trees and there are big playgrounds where children play for most of the times. I enjoy my evening walks here and they are like a stress buster for me. I enjoy walking on this big stretch of road almost 4 KM with date trees on either side of the road and the dim lit traffic lights almost making it very beautiful to walk on during night. This road is generally a crowded one with lots of traffic and office going people during most of the time of the day. But during the late night hours this road is very secluded with just a handful of people enjoying night walks. It usually takes me around 20 minutes to walk this entire stretch .But today I have been walking for almost 30 minutes and the road is not ending at all. I am lost and confused. I have faced the first rejection of my life. I had known this girl for almost 3 years now. I considered her as one of my close friends. I never knew when I started to like her. I was very comfortable around her and could almost talk to her about anything that I wanted to, on her part she also used to be understanding and concerned about me. One fine day after we came out of a restaurant I told her about my true feelings for her. She was shocked at that time and said that she doesn’t want to be in any relationship with anyone and she had always considered me as her very good friend. So she does not want to be in any relationship with me. I stood there like a zombie with a blank face. The auto ride back home was in total silence and when we parted ways we said that we are good friends and no matter what happens we will always be one. Although I nodded my head back then, now when I am alone I started to think about a whole lot of stuff like whether I made a mistake by saying this? Or was it too early to ask her out?

Proposals are like tasting a new fruit. Until and unless you have made an effort to eat the fruit we shall never know what it tastes like. After all the thinking and analyzing we gather all the courage in our body to come and tell the person that we like her and like a retard waiting for the answer that we have been dying to listen. But the rejection comes right out of nowhere and slaps our face. Phew!! We are startled at the answer and even more startled at the reason. But then what choice do we have, after all we are the brave ones to have expressed our self. The long journey back home starts and we are totally lost. All the time the question and answer are bouncing in the brains. We make sincere efforts to understand the hidden reasons behind the answer which in reality does not exist most of the time. After a lot of struggle we convince our self that what ever happened is past, so let’s just be friends and try to get back to normal. But the very moment we try to do that we are greeted by a new surprise, the change in the attitude of the other person. They are trying to avoid us and have a very superficial relationship. This makes our life even more miserable. Then we start to curse our self and importantly curse the friend who gave us the idea in the first place. This is a situation that many of us have faced in their life many times. When at the beginning we were expecting a new relationship we end up with nothing but sadness.

We should never feel bad about telling a person that we like them because we are not doing anything wrong. Although the answer that we had expected is not the one that we get, we must be happy that we had the courage to tell the person about our true feeling. I feel that it is better to have known the answer right away than not telling the person about your true feeling and keeping it locked in our heart for the rest of the life. Time is slow healer of all the problems in life. Even though it is very slow healer it heals all the wounds at some point of time or other. We need to have patience with them and faith in the friendship we have had for things to be better again. It may be the case that we can end up in a relationship which is much better than what we had before; after all if we truly like the person we always want them to be happy.

The road is coming to an end and so is my home. I feel much better after the long walk that I undertook. It has been three days since we met. I decide that I shall call her tomorrow and we shall meet. Although the things did not work as I wanted it to but now at least she knows that there is someone who likes her for who she is. Not today but someday she will understand me and we shall be together, till that I shall always be around her as she has been there for me…..