The unread message

I switch on the AC and try to catch some sleep after a busy day of college or rather a busy day ‘outside the college’. The mobile shows an unread message. It is a casual message asking me about the bad headache I had in the morning. But it’s not the message but the sender of the message that catches my eye. I close my eyes and rewind back to the memories associated with the person. A few months back we were in love with each other and now we are just friends with each other.

I really cannot put down her qualities that attracted me towards her. Maybe it was her simplicity or the contagious smile that brought me close to her. I believe it was my luck that we started interacting a lot and actually started to enjoy each others company. I cannot put a time frame as to when we started liking each other very much and ended up in a relationship. As expected, the initial months were like magical where everything was fun and good. We used to never get bored talking to each other and confided almost everything to each other. The coffee shops and food joints were like the classrooms for us where we spent the maximum time. But as it is said that ‘All that glitters is not gold’, we also had the rough patch where everything was actually ‘on the rocks’. The times spent were increasingly becoming less and even if we met we were very tired to have a casual conversation. This then became a daily issue and rather a frustrating one also. So we decided to end our relationship and just remain friends with each other


Is it really possible for us to be just friends with the person with whom we have had a relationship? Will there be no awkwardness between us? Relationships are like a piece of glass which when broken can be joined together but the crack will always be there. How is it possible for us to simply forget the true feelings for the person and just look at them as a friend? If that is the case then we are chameleons of the human race that can change their colors or feelings according to the situation. Every person we come across in our life has an impact in our life. No matter what happens, the actual feelings about the person remain unchanged. Faking true emotions is a quality that every individual posses at some level or the other. We can slowly convince the people around us that we are good friends with them but deep inside we are still struggling to accept this new relation. There is nothing that can be done about this situation rather to accept that things can never be the same again. That is life, as we can see and no matter what u want to change it will still remain the same.

I just smile at the message and close it and get back to sleep. I know that when I wake up there will be another message waiting for me…..

Confusion of my life

Well couldn’t help but read all the blogs that my friends are writing these days. So while going thru them I realized that even i wanted to write one for a really long long time . So here I am with my first blog.

I just came across this saying that “Does it really matter we love someone or not because what really matters is that whether you love yourself or not“. I started wondering what exactly that person is trying to say here. Right from an early age we are being told that man is a social animal and we are made to believe that we are suppose to live together with other people for smooth functioning of the society. So we also take in a lot of efforts in making friends and support the earlier fact. But the problem over here is by trying to be more ‘social’, we reach a point that we have more friends than we could have imagined. You start feeling very happy about that fact. We feel that we are most sociable person around and also that we are some important person in their life. The world is perfect around us and we are the happiest person here. Then where is the problem or the ‘dilemma’?

Well it’s about the functionality here. We are trying to balance out the various responsibilities of being a student to responsible son. Plus there is the added pressure of being with someone ‘special’. We are doing all of this with the expectation that our friends will understand us .Then when meet them after a long time we try to make up for all the lost time. But that becomes seemingly hard with time. We reach a point that we can no longer connect with them. We start worrying about where have things gone wrong. As a good friend we try to set things straight again by some means or the other. But alas the time is gone and we get the same question again in our mind that was there long long ago “Do they really like me now?” “Have they really changed from the time we met?” We try to give as many possible reasons to ourselves so that we do not feel guilty for the present situation. Many times we are also able to get ourselves out of the guilt trap of ours and put the blame on the others.

We start wondering why things have gone so bad and what has happened to the friend I had few years back. On the other hand the friend feels bad because his friend no longer has time for him and has got other activities to concentrate on. He fails to understand why those things have changed so much in so little time. So who exactly is the one responsible now for the situation? The friend who is not able to accept the changed friend of his or me who, all this while, thought that he will understand me?.

Human beings in general need constant attention from someone or the other. We have convinced ourselves that we cannot live alone without anyone’s constant caring or support or friendship. So when we do not get the attention that we are used to we cannot accept it. We try to reason it out with ourselves that the other person is responsible for the present situation. At the end of it we start doubting our decision or choice of friends that we made.

The solution to this problem is acceptance. We need to accept the situation the way it is. The more we try to reason it out the more we shall get hurt by it. As I had already said that don’t worry if people don’t love you just make sure that you love yourselves..